I ki to shi i ke ru mo no 生きとし生けるもの (All living things)

⚠️ content warning there is dead animals in note. If you are sensitive about dead animals.you might not want to read this note

I ki to shi i ke ru mo no

生きとし生けるもの

All living things

I almost forgot about this Japanese words “ I ki to shi i ke ru mo no” until This events happened a few month ago.

When I am riding bike in NYC. I constantly seeing dead animals on the street.dead mouse(rat). Pressed animals. Every time When I see them. I gasp then I send reiki or saying I’m sorry in my head. I just can’t ignore. What I see and feel them.It’s horrifying to see dead animals. But I don’t feel scared. They are not gonna bite us. Just visually horrifying but energy is gentle.

We are living with so many insects, animals, microorganisms, some of them are poisonous, filthy and dangerous. But When They are dead Are we scary? They are not gonna hurt you.some of them are looks horrified.some of them are looks peaceful. If we find dead creatures somewhere you are belong that place. we have to take care of them because of starting rotting.and giving them traveling smoothly to the other world.

A few month ago. I had to take care of dead mouse. In the basement. I’m not afraid but I feel sorry for them. and little bit scary.

There was one little mouse was looking at dead mouse. Maybe Their family member? Their partner? Say good bye to dead one? I said gently  “ you have to go” then alive one was left.

I stared taking care of dead one. I put them on used food container.with cardboard. 

Then

This was totally unexpected happened.

I felt heavy.

When I moved dead mouse in food container.my hand was heavyweight Even though They are so tiny. They are so right weight. But my hand felt heavy.I felt heavy. 

Then I realized that death is heavy. 

No matter what kind of creatures, All living things.

I cried little bit. Say bye to them.I’ve never thought that way before When I was taking care of dead bugs, mouse, plants.

Part of my empathic is becoming more sensitive?Am I sensitive about death? Yes,I am.even though I’m end of life doula. death is never easy. but we can’t ignorance.

reflecting myself from this experience.and thinking about our life.death and birth.It’s a life cycle.

All living things are so precious.

Love Mariko