Shadow is dark,deep,cold,feels stuck, and isolated.
Hello Moon and Sun
Yin and yang
When the Sun is covered by Moon.
I felt time was moving slow motion.
I felt end of the world but beautifully quiet and peaceful.
I was so excited to see total eclipse. I’ve never seeing in my whole life and I was lucky to be a witness own eyes and feel this beautiful cosmos events.Where I live. I knew something is going deep with shadow will showing up.during this event. We are going to experience The Shadow by moon.
Slowly Moon is covering Sun. Very slowly. slowly..When It Three-quarters of covering sun temperature drop down like Summer weather to fall weather.then close to total eclipse. It seems like a everything stop motion. animals were stop moving.Very quiet and peaceful.then When It moon cover sun completely. I felt my whole body was vibrating. it seems everything stop. we are in somewhere other planet. then When It sun came out start moving and I hear some animals sounds. and vibrant energy Surrounding us.
after witness of beautiful moments. I stated to deep shadow work. I wasn’t planing but I knew something going deep.
Fighting own ego, grief, shame, dark side of me.
my tears were non stop my Shoulder getting heavier like I’m carrying someone. but I knew it. It’s gonna be end. I was hoping to ending soon. very soon. holding tight. I wish I could screaming but no energy to scream. It felt like Earthquake in my body.
Almost 4hours of crying and crawling bed. My whole body was so stiff and relief.I feel exhausted but feel completed.
After this trip It reminds of me grief never end. but When we go deep then coming back I feel so much gratitude and more opening up my capacity and I feel I’m loved one.It was tremendously good first bite of apple after coming back. It was full of flavor, crunchiness and aroma each bite. Absorbing and nursing my body.
Universe is right. many of trauma incidents made me stronger and Openness later. I didn’t know When It happened.
I’m deeply applicate to my friends who were invited us and who were holding me during deep shadow work.
