visiting child memories

I’m visiting my childhood memories to healing my childhood/adulthood. When I need extra support visiting my child memories for asking little me. to protect,support and ask some answers.

I used to be a competitive swimmer When I was little. because of I had weak body. I got sick almost every weekend. ( well obviously I didn’t like school) Little me was quiet and Sensitive child. my mom was recommend me to swim. something build up my body strong and hun to be a water. I very much loved it and becoming competitive swimmer. I was at pool. 300 days morning and after school. but I loved it so much. being a water is a quiet and I swim like a fish. I was only thinking how fast I can make it to the goal. more faster. more faster. I still remembered moments of cold water in the pool at winter. and after hard training. whole my body gets exhausted. my body fat was so low.(I have a lot now! lol) I lived for swim. then my goal was joined for junior olympic as a swimmer.

my only goal was how to get in olympic that time. but no complaining. I wanted. and I enjoyed Training and I felt Satisfied after Training. can’t remember how many years of Training.

my first stage of life.

I failed preliminary round. so I couldn’t compete. As a little me I learned discipline and fail before when I was turn 10 years old.

then quit to be a Competitive swimmer.

When I back to Japan a few years ago. my mother and I went our favorite pork bun place. When I was training for everyday. We stop by that place often. I couldn’t wait for dinner after swim because of hard training. I was hungry all the time!

I wasn’t eat that pork bun so long more that 25 years.then When we got there. how small that pork buns! I used be holding my both hands.

I felt so big when I was little. holding pork bun but not any more.

I’m growing. I’m adult.

then we ate. taste same!! bring us instantly memories back!

after we stop by our old home. and walk around my childhood neighbor.non much changed and we kept talking, talking….It was healing. visiting with mother. and we are so grad to visit our old memories.

recently I back on swim again. bring back my child memories. How much I had discipline.consistency. these memories cheer me up. and I watched my favorite tv shows from childhood. I was watching every Wednesday after swim with my brother. it is kind of cheesy detective drama. no blood. no sexual.but funny!( It called Tommy and Matsu)

My inner child is happy and I’m gonna do again to visit my childhood memories.

When did you say hello to your inner child?

Please, visit them If you want and reconnecting again.

Little us has big heart actually.

my Famous pork bun!